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Updated: Jan 25

This blog is dedicated to my #nan (mums mum) from my S.E.L.D (South-East London Dayz).

Sharing great pics, footage and audio of our time together during the last 10yrs of her life from being in a Nursing Home and our days of living on 'North Peckham Estate in Peckham'. A variety content both Public and PPV (pay per view).




1st MARCH ‘2020:

Hope you have a splendid day up in the #heavens

This is #1 of my fav #tb #pics taken of her during her Nursing home days back in South London 😍 Miss you, Love you, Thinking of you always.x

#happybirthday 😘 #nan #today 🎂



R.I.P NAN (7yrs) 2day Laid 2

Sat 2nd Feb '2019:

It’s 09:50am and I’m sat on my bed thinking about toda when my Nan was laid to rest... having passed away on the 12th Jan (my birthday) 💚😢😘

I can feel her shining 🌞down on me RIGHT NOW through my window... as I’m writing this. 

I FEEL YOU... Nan ☺️

Only God knows how much I miss and love you 😘 but I know your happy, safe and watching over/protecting me... alongside all my other Grandparents. 🖤

I may no longer have a ‘LIVING’ grandparent but I know that you are all Blessing, Protecting and Wanting the best for me (and I)


Toast a drink 🥃 up in heaven for me... too.x

#laidtoresttoday #0202 #7yrs #loveyou #missyou #loveandmissall4grandparents #dedicatedtoyou #anikkaforbes





Today, had she still been alive 😔 my nan (mum's side) would have been celebrating her 90th birthday today. xXx

I have just found footage that was recorded when she was in the #nursinghome on Fri 6th Jan ‘2012, 6 days before she passed away. It breaks my heart 💔 to know that I did not record this last moment for longer. 😢 Something is better than nothing.🙏

Monday 9th Jan ‘2012, she had been admitted to hospital for a urine infection, I went both days to visit her on Tues 10th & Wed 11th to tell her I wouldn’t be coming on Thursday because it was my birthday... so I would be back on Friday!

I can’t believe it’s 6yrs since she passed away on 12th Jan, my 31st Birthday!! 🥺 A day that I will NEVER forget and cherish every year... because only she and my fabulous God know how much she meant to me.💖

I am thankful, grateful and happy I got to know, and spend quality time with her and have so many, never seen, priceless memories of our time together during the last 10yrs of her life living within a Nursing Home.

No matter her bad, wicked, and unkind treatment towards me in my younger years, I understand and forgave her years ago. I will never forget and have ‘no regrets’ because no one is ‘perfect’ and the experience was meant to be part of my life journey. 💯

There is always a deep story behind every person that comes across as either (Cold, Mean, Unempathetic, Wicked or Reserved) to name a few! No one is born ‘BAD’ it stems from their damaging childhood which affects them. #Facts

Nan, whatever you are doing up above... I hope you have a Splendid day in heaven. Love and miss u so much. x

#happybirthday #nan #90th #celebration #love #vlog #blog





This day back in 2012 my beautiful and precious Nan, passed away... on my Birthday 💔and cannot believe it’s been 6yrs already!

There is not a day that goes by when she is not in my thoughts and even more so on this particular day... as it’s both mixed emotions of happiness for seeing another year 🙏🏾 and also sadness as I miss her so much.😘

I know she watching over me, keeping me safe and proud of me too and my birthdays will always be a celebration for both our lives... we will meet again 1

💚Love you Nan... always and forever. Cheers 🥂to us.☺️

#AnikkaForbes #Birthday #12 #January #Nan #Celebration #Loss #Happy #1Life #Budtylicious #MyGirls #DoingMe #HappyBirthday2Me




JULY 4th ‘2017

Good Afternoon Mi Lovelies. As I'm at home continuing to work on Chapter 7 from '2011 for my working-progress Book;

'The Journey of a Hidden Princess: A British Lady's Path to Discovery of Her African Royal Bloodline'

I came across this video, which I've just watched for the 1st time... I completely forgot I had this! The same way I write my Diaries is no different to any video footage I've recorded over the years... meaning I write and record but never do I go back and read or watch anything, it may sound weird but it's true.

So I am literally a first-time reader or viewer of my material and this video is just 1 of many that I'm sure I will share with you all.

This was to be the last birthday that I would spend with my Nan back in March '2011... because she passed away 10 months later on my birthday 12th Jan '2012. 5yrs already, wow! I know she would have been proud of me and is watching over me from above.

I will forever be thankful for the care and help from all the staff at Castlebar in Sydenham Hill, SE26 (her 2nd Nursing Home) for all that you have done for her.

To Val (carer) for also becoming a great friend to my Nan and me too during her time there.

From me and Nan... a Big Thank You.x

#Nan #Memories #Goodtimes #Birthday #Celebrations #Bed #smiles #Happy #Diary #2011