SLUT (Sexy, Lady, U., Tosser) Narcissist Real Talk Animated & Diary Content Series. Sharing my first and last experience of being in a relationship with a Narcissist, who met his match with me. Full of Emotional, Mental and Verbal abuse, as you will hear. Ladies, know your worth and leave him!!!
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‘HORE’ NEW MEANING
SAT 20th MAY ‘2023
While at work yesterday, i was thinking about continuing with completing this project and about more of the #verbalabusive words the #narcissist ex called me in texts or voice messages!
And just like the word slut, that I turned into a positive, here is another for the word #hore
Perfect for him any man that LIE about eating the #PUSSY 👅
What do u think ladies?
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THANK U 4 COMMENTS 🤗
SUN 30th APRIL ‘2023:
Blog comments and feedback is so appreciated!
Tosser he is!!!
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S.L.U.T | INTRODUCTION
FRI 3rd JUNE '2022:
Welcome to SLUT (Sexy, Lady, U, Tosser) Narcissist Animation Series | #slut_nas
Here is the Introduction to my #animation series. I am sharing some of my (1st and last) experiences with a ⚠ #narcissist⚠ who was verbally, emotionally and mentally abusive.
Why am I sharing this? Because it is something I never knew about until this experience. As it was my first time, I think it's important to share my #truth about what it is like being involved with one who was 19yrs older than me and set in his old-school ways!
No one is perfect, and we may all have narcissistic traits. You or people may think I am a female narcissist (who knows). Still, I know at no point was I controlling, abusive or gaslighting, which is what my ex has been doing decades before me.
He underestimated me being an #openbook
I remember telling him that I would create something from my relationship with him being a narcissist. By sharing some of the texts, diary entries and audio of some of his jaw-dropping verbal abuse (as you wouldn't believe it unless you heard it). #realtalk
I also want to write a book based on it, so watch this space!!! Until then, enjoy some of the animation created and uploaded to YT.
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REAL TALK
A strong female whose ‘mouth’ was too honest, direct and truthful for him to handle, so he Verbally, Emotionally and Mental Abused me, hoping it would beat me down like his past relationships, when in fact, it had a minor effect and made me stronger!
No regrets because now I know what it is like to be Abused in these three ways by a man. Most of all, I know about the CLARES LAW, where you can check to see if the person you are dating or in a relationship with has any previous Domestic Abuse reported to the police.
Do Ur Checks, and Don’t Wait for the Red 🚩 Flag!
There are three parts to my experience in the form of a book (working progress), Audio Animation and Text Convos. All are shared here.
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THE YEAR HAS FLOWN
SAT 25th MARCH ‘2023
This time last year the joker aka pathetic ⚠️Narcissist ex⚠️ had an injunction granted that I took out on him because of his unstable, stalking-like, jealous, childish and gaslighting ways that I encountered for the 10mths that he lived under the same roof as me.🙄
As shown in the blog, dedicated to me sharing my experience and truth of being involved for the first and last time, with a #gaslighting #narcissist
Otherwise TRUST ME his FULL NAME and FACE would have been exposed to the 🌍because men like him need to be EXPOSED fully. As that is 1 thing a NARCISSIST hates is being being exposed by the truth. Which is why they Gaslight so much! Kmt
Wow, still can't believe a year has gone!
The police have all his antics, the abuse etc, he needs to be careful as he could end up up right back behind bars if charges are brought from all the evidence I gave them. ✅
May this experience teach him to stay in his lane and don't try and deal with the younger female of 19yrs because he clearly can’t keep up or handle the ‘real talk’.
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NO SHOW | INJUNCATION GRANTED
FRI 25th MARCH ‘2022
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YEAR | 2021
NARCISSIST EX | GASLIGHTING
THURS 30th SEP ‘2021:
Today my landlord went to ask my #narcissist ex, who is still renting the room above me in this #houseshare
Having invited him to move here as he wanted to give the #relationship another try! 🤨
I lent him the weights in the garden when he first moved in (which lasted a wk)
Anyway, the #immature, #attentionseeking joker has been purposely dropping the weights on the floor because I am below 🙄 so the landlord went to ask him to return them!
Here is what the ‘Man Child’ had to say... having had my landlord send me this #audio
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PURPOSLY NOT CLOSING FRONT DOOR PROPERLY
7th AUG ‘2021
The narcissist ex, returning home & as you can see (attention seeking antics) not closing the door properly!
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LEAVING DOOR WIDE OPEN
28th JULY ‘2021
You couldn’t make it up, the childish idiot of a narcissist ex purposely leaving the door wide open. Housemate John finally sees for himself his antics and reacts 😡👏
Did you experience such IMMATURE, Attention seeking antics from your #narcissist ex?
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MOVE ON FFS 🙄
7th JULY ‘2021:
The #narcassist ex returning home having just followed me down the road on his bike to try and speak to me, but I weren't having none of it!
So he called me a Sexy, Lady, U, Tosser ✅ (Slut) because his deflecting how he is someone that doesn't know about respecting the person he is involved with, only mess about!
Which is why 1 of his ex’s, from back in the day slept with many of his friends 😂 to spite him, which left him VERY insecure 🤷♀️ Ahh well!
So his attack is verbal, mental and emotional abuse!!! Poor ting!!! 🙄
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HMMM, TOO LATE MATE
SAT 29th MAY ‘2021:
A text from him a few days after final split! No, I still hadn't changed the name under my contacts because though I knew there was no going back; it's still a process.🥺 The 💔 was still attached! 🙈
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PEOPLES VIEWS ON NBN 🙊
22nd MAY ‘2021
Wow, 8 things people said about the ⚠️Narcassist ex, in one day! Good thing I have my own mind and not phased by what others say about him. One thing that wasn't mentioned because he hides it so well, is that he is an ALCOHOLIC 🥴.
I'd be lying if I said I didn't agree, having found out for myself as you do! It was very amusing hearing the different views, very interesting!!! 🤷♀️
1. Laughed out of disgust when I showed them his rant on (Fri 30th April) and said “He is the last person who should be judging or throwing stones at anyone after his conviction” 😒
2. HE can’t let go of that ‘safe option’ because she has a habit and she’s his insurance 😵🙈🤣
3. Couldn’t believe his a ‘give and tek back’ person
and should be ashamed... he ain’t no man!
4. Told I’ve dropped my standards (T & D)🙊 Craves female attention... otherwise he wouldn’t have allowed that ‘off-girl’ living upstairs to get so familiar then complain that she’s doing his head in!
5. Heard a female talking about his sister not talking to him! They think he has NPD. ✅
6. Told his never had a female like me before and over cutting above his weight! 😜
7. Told I’m too level-headed & way too good 4 him 🧐
8. Can be a nice guy... but has split personality that switches like the weather. 🥴
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MORE 🙈 INSECURITY 🥃 ATTACKS 🙄
20th MAY ‘2021
Here we go again! While under the influence, wihich s everyday (so nothing new) .
For a man that could EAT 😜 me, morning, day and night and because he knows he will no longer have it... It's stink 😂🥩 too funny! #hating
Always throwing his toys out the pram with words that he thinks will beat me down, like they hdave one with his past relationships! ❌ not me mate!
I'm simply just disappointed and yer it hurts to know there are women going through this and WORSE. Who are married, have kids or been with a man for YEARS and he has distroyed every part of her. Its deep!
No Abuse, verbal, mental, emotional or physical is ok and you need to EXPOSE them and report it all to the police, so it can be logged on the;
CLARES LAW SCHEME REGISTER
So any female in the future will be informed of their Domestic Abuse, if they enquire! ✅
What I wrote in my diary after this message, making excuses 🙄 for him. No, he doesn't mean it, but yes he does for the Narcissistic side, but his like a little boy craving attention and being unkind.
Calling me (Dried Up) because his 1 wish was for him to get me 🤰 but God said NOOOOO!
God was sending me signs when he making me have irregular bleeding (never had before)
Had I got pregnant for him, would I have kept it... OF COURSE, every child is a blessing regardless of circumstances. His a father of 5 and none if them want anything to do with him!
I drop my knickers for anyone, yer he certainly has got me twisted with that back-a-day ex who was lose. ‘Each to their own’
Wither I’d slept with a thousand or 2 men, or an Irish, Scottish or English 🤪 WTF has it got to do with him! What does who or how many you have got (up, close or personal) with prior to being involved with your new partner is NONE OF THEIR BUSINESS.
When your a fucked up, overly controlling and insecure man who believed anyone I spoke to, or who spoke to me... I WANTED TO FUCK the ⚠️Narcissists⚠️ words, not mine.
I could have still been a virgin when I was in the relationship with him and he would have still wanted to abuse me mentally, emotionally and verbally. But the more I spoke back or laughed at him, it fuelled his mouth to try and be even more vulgar, yet he had the cheek to always complain and say
”my mouth was too much”
Yer, it was because I speak truth, say how it is and obviously it's YOU with the issue if you can't handle my mouth talking, not being abusive but assertive and direct, Ahh well!!
He couldn't even hold on to the relationship with 1 of his daughters who I met, went to dinner a few times along with her 3 beautiful kids.
I would be sickened to my stomach, embarrassed and ashamed to know my Dad / Granddad or any male family member had spoken or written such words to a female!
I'm sure his mum would be spinning in her grave to know how her child turned out. SMH!
You couldn't make it up!
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SMH
20th MAY ‘2021
You once again have allowed your insecurities to cloud your mind...
You will never change Peter... the continued name calling proves that, it’s sad. Call me a SLUT and all you want 🤷♀️
You making the taking of Frankie’s number an issue for what, like its personal and so that means I want to sleep with him, it’s so sad that your brain works like that.
Disrespect to u, you don’t have respect for females Peter let alone me... so for u to feel disrespected is funny.
Ahh well I guess those that have said ur not deserving of me and more... were correct as you perceive me in the way that you carry on or carried on in the past... a CHEAT, UNFAITHFUL.
At least I can say that has never been something I’ve done, as it’s all about respect!
Thank you again for showing me your unchanged colours.
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1st DATE NIGHT
MON 17th MAY ‘2021
Me and my Boo’s first #datenight due to the whole loc down and all! Plus it's only been a few days since he moved into my house-share renting the spare room above me 🤗
So though we are living together, we have our own room, which in all honesty make more sense and will be the tester to our relationship to see if we ha future or not, having just agreed a few days ago too, to give the relationship another, final go!!!
We had a lovely night bowling and playing games, and look forward to more! 🙏
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DESTROYED TANTRUM ⚠️
23.03.2021
So, the lovely dressing-gown that I brought him last meh, as you can see he loved it that much, after an argument and his outrageous and spiteful ways, he ripped it to shreds.
Another name I gave to him was (Mr Give & Tek Back) as he loved to give me things then ask for them back. Like this phone that he destroyed.
Another first and last experience!!! Actions of a 59yr old man 😒
MESSAGE I SENT 2 HIM
23.03.2031
U called 2 apologies 4 the wrong thing... wanting 2 take back what u gave me, that’s the person u are & done it once already! 🤷♀️
Calling me a ‘cunt’ (when u 💚my pum) so much... was hilarious! But the fact u didn’t think that was what needed an apology... is another ‘narcissistic trait’ of yours!
Will always be here for you... but helping u with anything more is not an option (your not worthy) right now or maybe ever again!
U got ur Safe option, Emms or the ex (who tried to set u up, yrs back) to give you an helping hand... so u will be alright.👊
PS. Remember my young 🍔 is up the road... if hungry! 👅
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RUIN HIS DAY
8th JULY ‘2020:
Our convo, 2 days after exchanging numbers.
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NUMBERs EXCHANGED
TUES 7th JULY ‘2020:
This is what I wrote in my #nickydiaries2020 about this day, 2yrs ago
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CLICK ⤵️ TO WATCH TEXT CHAT
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YEAR | 2021
FOOLISH ANTICS
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THROWING RUBBISH OUTSIDE MY WINDOW
THURS 23rd SEP '2021
Look at what the idiot is continuing to do, throwing his food outside my window! 🙄
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MOVED IN | RENTING ROOM ABOVE!
TUES 18th MAY ‘2021
Today, was the day he moved in having split up for 3mths and asking me if we could try again! I agreed, telling him to move into the room above at my place and that will be the ultimate test. If it works great, if not then we just be friends and move on.
He was apprehensive, but I didn’t think anything of it. But I did know that it was going to be an experience (first time) and honestly thought it would have been all good, even if it didn't last! 😂
NOTHING could have prepared me for what a BIG, GROWN CHILD OF 59, would do for attention, the lies, gaslighting and narcissistic devil inside of him.
The saying, there is a first time for everything, this was a first and last time experience and one that needs to be shared to give other females courage to SPEAK OUT, SHARE and EXPOSE the narcissist, more so if they are Domestic Abusers.
I experience verbal, mental and emotional abuse (nothing that I'd not experienced) as a child from my Nan (read my memoir) https://amzn.eu/d/6dUNQE8
But for those that experience the above but also the physical abuse, they are the ones who are in need of extra support and courage.
So this is my continued story from the point of him moving in!
Oh and the relationship lasted 2wks from when he moved in!!
Ready of not... this is the Insecure, Immature, Man-Child, Attention seeking, Desperate Narcissist Antics.
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RELATIONSHIP B4 FINAL BREAKUP
A NARCISSIST | SO TRUE
24th FEB '2021
First Time 4 Everything... i couldn’t put my finger on it but this quote says it all!
Being in a relationship with someone who has a #narcissistpersonalitydisorder Is far more than challenging... it can be draining too! #love isn‘t enough if one cant help being toxic. 🤐
I’ve #noregrets lessons learned, no ones perfect, no excuses, can’t fix, #selflove #verballyabusive #insecure #scared 🤷♀️
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VALENTINES DAY 😍
SUN 14th FEB ‘2021
FLOWERS & A BOTTLE OF MOET🍾
FLOWERS SELFIE 🤗
I brought him a rose & a dressing-gown (something he never had) or ever owned, so perfect gift with NBN (naughty but nice) initials which is what I call him. 😘
CARD I GOT HIM
CARD HE GOT ME
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LOVING A NARCISSIST
SUN 3rd JAN ‘2021:
By this time, I knew I had learned about the word #narcissist and was nearly 7mths into the relationship (on and off) as he was always ending it!
The playing mind games, giving the silent treatment, and #gaslighting me! 😏
Yes, I continued to entertain it... because the heart was involved (you can't tell it who to fall for). 🤷♀️
Plus, having never been involved with a Narcissist, it was also a challenge / research (as crazy as it sounds) for me!
I knew I would create something from this relationship with him regardless of whether we stayed together or not. Ony time will tell!!!
No relationship is perfect and this one was certainly never experienced before (1st time for everything) so no regrets!
While he was out I popped round and left him this canvas I 💙 U, along with a few samosas and a Dragon Stout.
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YEAR | 2020
MASK 👺 OFF | 3 MTHS INTO RELATIONSHIP
6th OCT ‘2020
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SOUL MATE FINALLY
AUG 12th ‘2020
What can I say except God Is Great, along with all his challenges that he presented me with there were only 2 options do as most would do 'run' or do as I do 'get the facts' then decide!
But you know when your falling for someone when their absence is making your heart do overtime but more so when the norm of 'sex' is not yet a factor only a connection that is bigger and deeper than anything I have experienced before and my 'heart of heart' telling me that this man IS the '1 and Only' that I have been praying for, for so many years. Amen
Now as I'm about to leave my 30's I see that my time for happiness, unconditional love, affection, contentment, fun times, realness and the rest but above all of this feeling and knowing that this man isn't like any others, he is unique in the fact that we mirror each other as were so alike, we just FIT in every way perfectly it's beautiful scary but boi does he make me so #HAPPY and in such a short space of time it's like WOW because we are #Aligned #soulmates who have finally been placed together by the wonderful almighty #god #thankyou #amen #newrelationship #love #new #nickyforbes #anikkaforbes #realtalk
Love this pic taken the other day #when2become1 #lovetheblackness🖤 #melanin #pda #holdinghands #blm #shadesofblack #couple #together #superman #nails #tattoo
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REALLY... I AM SPEECHLESS
FRI 10th JULY ‘2020:
While on my night shift at work and on the phone for most of the night, NbN told me he is ‘falling in love’ with me!
WTF, REALLY! I am speechless!
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I WOULD NEVER DISRESPECT U
THURS 9th JULY ‘2020:
Two years ago today! It had been 2days since I had exchanged numbers with NBN (naughty but nice), so the early days of getting to know one another!
Below are a few random #snapshots of our #convo via #whatsapp along with #audio
✨✨REMEMBER✨✨ his words “I would never disrespect you” 🫣
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RUIN HIS DAY
8th JULY ‘2020
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HE ASKED FOR MY NUMBER
TUES 7th JULY ‘2020:
Where it all began, sharing with you my diary entry of what happened 2yrs ago today! #Slut_nas
You have two options below;
CLICK the THUMBNAIL PHOTO to watch part 1 (Nicky Diaries) Animation
CLICK the video (WhatsApp Convo) Animation
READ the WhatsApp Convo screenshots
